That New New

I’m glad to hear you have an opinion
But don’t mistake me for your minion
It’s a shame the new me doesn’t suit you
And that you miss the girl you were used to
Well the old me is dead and gone
And you can keep repeating that like the chorus of a song
The old me is dead and gone
The old me is dead and gone

I may appear the same but inside is where I changed
Spent most of my life playing a childish game
Made many mistakes with only myself to blame
I was a transformer
Could morph into whatever the world would prefer
I played my part well like a hefty paid actor
Just did what I had to do to make the roster

It wasn’t until I looked in the mirror
And saw myself a little more clearer
That I called out to God “Draw me nearer”
"Wrap your arms around me Lord, draw me nearer."
He helped me back on my feet
He gave me something solid to walk on, concrete
He gave me joy so my life could be upbeat
He gave me strength so I could beat the heat.

So take a look at me now
Do I blend in or stand out in the crowd?
Is my voice unheard or does it echo loud?
Do I make God ashamed or do I make him proud?
I stand out.
I stand up.
I stand fulfilled.

The new me is alive and well.

My Lullaby

I was sad not to hear your voice tonight, but the very thought of you makes my heart take flight. And I may be a silly girl that's fallen for a silly boy, but all I wanted was a conversation that I could enjoy. Now I'm not trying to bring everyone down, it's just there's something about your voice that's an addictive sound. Sometimes I'd like to be clingy and talk to you 24-7, but that'd be Hell for you and for me pure Heaven. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those psycho chicks, but I've fallen head over heels into a pile of bliss. So I guess you could say I'm not in my right mind, but I'm sane enough to know that you're one of a kind. So when you get a chance, dial my number because the last thing I want to hear is your voice before I slumber.

Las Pequeñas Cosas

It's the little things in life that make me smile.
The faith of a child,
listening to a good song you haven't heard in a while,
finding that one missing sock in the laundry pile,
never knowing what tomorrow has to bring,
discovering 20 dollars in an old pair of jeans,
accomplishing something together as a team,
realizing the perfect day was real, not a dream,
staying up late to look at the stars,
realizing that boys aren't really from Mars,
getting closer and closer to that fancy car,
being crazy and playing air guitar,
making up a secret handshake,
standing outside with your mouth open to catch a snow flake,
eating three huge slices of chocolate cake,
taking unexpected study breaks,
getting a letter from an old friend,
doing nothing but sleeping late on the weekend,
dressing up like a princess and playing pretend,
getting a fresh style and starting a new trend,
buy one get one free,
remembering something from the past briefly,
getting sick from eating too much candy,
returning home from a trip safely,
taking a belly dancing class,
seeing someone pick up trash,
watching my little cousin grow up fast,
he's even proud of his little mustache.

It's the little things that people don't even care for,
but it's the little things that I adore,
because it was all something I never noticed before,
until one day a small thing shook my core,
after that I simply demanded more,
I promised myself I'd open my eyes and never ignore,
instead open my mind and begin to explore,
I applaud the little things and demand an encore.

Bananas

I'm crazy! Crazy for you.
I'm not trying to sound corny, but it's true.
I get caught in daydreams about us.
I snap out of it when I realize my cheeks are blushed.
I wish your hand was always entwined with mine,
and I wish I could always know what was on your mind.
Sometimes I wonder what we could be.
But the future being unknown makes everything hazy.
And there are times that I feel scared,
because there are things I want to tell you that I've never shared,
and there are places I want to take you where explorers have never dared,
and there are barriers I want you to help me destroy that have been spared.
Now that I think about it, maybe you should be the one that's scared.
Putting fears aside,
I'm ready to take that dive,
and let whatever comes up against me collide,
because my feelings for you will not easily subside.
And what makes this all crazy is how little about you I know.
How little about me you know.
And I may be out of the box,
but the unknown is what makes this rock,
because while others see a sand lot,
I see a sand box.

Just For Fun

I’ve got the first day of school jitters.
Thinking of skipping out but I’m no quitter.
Hard hitter, straight spitter,
Making the rules like Bob Ditter.

Schemed outfit. Lookin clean, lookin fresh.
Sitting in the front row, the teachers are impressed.
Leaving them other kids in the dust, they feeling depressed.
Taking today as my own with no regrets.

I’ll straight up run these halls.
Write my name on every bathroom stall.
Make all the important calls.
Turn this cake upside down from wall to wall.

And this is just the first day of more to come.
These kids running scared like a pig from a gun.
But I’m just here to have fun,
So get comfy and warm your buns.

"Welcome Back"

Home.
It feels strange.
Probably because nothing has changed.
The bed sheets still smell like lavender.
It's still June according to my calendar.
Even though everything seems the same,dust has gathered on my picture frames.
The air smells stale,and my desktop is over flowing with mail.
My books have been moved,
and I think I'm missing a pair of shoes.
Everything seems foreign and cluttered.
I guess the best I can do is ignore it.
I'm a stranger in my own house.
The walls are silent, I wish they'd shout.
Maybe I should sleep in the guest bedroom for a while.
At least until I no longer feel like a lost child.
Let's just say I never unpacked my suitcase.
Just roamed the world like I owned the place.
I could live with that.
You see, this house doesn't feel like home because...
It never was.

Home.